Thursday, April 12, 2012

20 something woes

Well, I am 20 something or rather early 20's. I am trying to explain my situation here, its pretty complex and typical.

When your 20 something or in your early 20's
 1) Your probably a recent college grad.
2) Jobless
3) single
4) financially dependent on your parents or credit cards.
5) none of your friends are with you anymore every one is busy with their own problems and life.
6) Alcholic/smoker/god know what else which is not by any means good for health.
7) believing in horoscopes wishing it predicts when you you will get a job.
8) and desperately want to be successful  in life and solve all your miseries with that one job.

Well, I am in one of these dudes. This is probably one of my worst phases of my life.  I am just out of school grad looking for a job in a IT industry( which is very 'Indian' btw ) dreaming to make it big one day in silicon valley but  besides that  I don't have friends around me to hang out with. all of them are spread out to the length and breadth of the country and you try to make new friends whom you see around your block, who are still going to school, they don't talk to you cause your too old for them and its not 'cool'  and if your trying to make friends with people who work, they don't like you either cause your too young to discuss work and politics.So, basically in a situation where facebook,twitter, youtube, yahoo and google  are your best hangout places and mostly,wikipedia cause you  prepare for the interview.

Now, After all that comes the love of your life. <3  Love is in fact the other huge problem for an average 20 something dude.  Some of them are lucky enough to find their love and live with them for the rest of their lives and others are also lucky enough not to find one and they keep looking for one. But they are few others,these are the worst kind, who find their soul mate but don't have time or resources to make that connection.

The latter kind find it even worse, They do not know if they should keep everything aside and go after the love of their lives or just find some one else considering the fact I read in a physcology book which says "They are not just one but many soul mates for everyone in this world". And after all that, you will have competition to win her over other dudes whom you think do not deserve her.

Finally you come to the conclusion that 'Life has to move on'. A new day, A new life, A new struggle.


Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Fish !

At 15, They said, you got to be at the pond to  fish.
At 16, I said, I  Fianlly learnt  the art to fish.
At 17, They said, you got to look in different ponds to find a better fish.
At 18, She said,  Can I be your fish  :) .
At 19, I said,  your not the right fish.
At 20, They Said, Don worry There is lot fish in the Pond.
At 21, I said, I am fishing a lot but still can't find a fish.
At 22,They said, Keep Fishing.
At 23, I  said, I found lots of fishes but nothing was like the first fish.
At 24, They said, go back to your first fish.
At 25, I said, your the most amazing fish in the world, I looked in different ponds and wasn't able to find a fish like you. Will you be my fish for rest of my life ??

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Racism and I hate it

Prologue  :  I feel disgusted !

Before I came to the United States I heard stories of white people showing racism against Indians. After coming to the united states I feel all those stories are bull shit. I mean Indians show racism between Indains confused ???  So was I. We show racism between Ourselves.The first racist thing starts with the North and South Indians, I can understand that because south Indians don speak Hindi and north Indians don speak Telugu, Tamil,Malayalam or any other south Indian Language. When there is a language barrier it could be difficult. Although It can be argued.

The worst racism is between our people ( I am talking about AP or Telangana... see  racism again  ) Like People from andhra pradesh all of them speak telugu right ??  all of them eat almost the same food right  ??  I don understand why still they feel other caste people are different than us. Like I was talking to this girl and she was like I  would only marry or love  a reddy and no one else ??  I was like why ??  she goes like My Father would not agree.  Goodness me , We are like in 2010 almost 2011. If ur born on this earth, Its your right to get married by your choice. I understand your father  took care of you all these 20 years but he had to do it. out every 100 fathers 99 of them will do it right ! Do you think  your father would not love you any more if you get married to a person from different caste without his permission ??  no right??

The second thing , In this modern India, Take any application form , you still need to write down  your religion  on the application and if you don't  write it  they don't take it. How does my religion  matter to him  ?? I mean Why should he need to  know about my religion or caste ,I mean It shouldn't be mandatory  right?? democracy dude  for god sake !

I  see this racist thing in people from the rural areas  I do not want to be mean but yes, it is the fact. I know people who feel closer to a person even if he is a stranger  just because his last name is reddy, chowdary or he is bhramin or some ramdom Joe . Sick of those people.I hate the fact , I have to be them just because I have no other option. Some times I feel that I have to show racism against people who show racism. Hate Fucking society !

Epilogue :  Feel even more disgusted every single day ! 

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

The Train

I have read, heard about this like many times till now. If you ever want to become a director you should be a good story teller. This is my first approach in writing stories rather telling a story (written).

Precautions  :
This could be a story you probably heard.Since, I make stories out of stories. You might seen the same stories as I did so might look completely familiar.

Story :

My story also starts at a Station as most of Indian movies.

Its  6 O clock  in  the morning, Adi walks into the station with his jacket and scarf around his neck.Its dark and cold outside with the sky about to turn blue.Adi looks for train at the track. After few minutes,he sees a light from the far right coming towards him. He goes closer to the track. The Hog head honks at adi watching him being closer to the track as he pulls the train into the station, A huge block of wind pushes adi  but adi tries to stay put blocking the wind.Trains comes to a halt, doors slide and people come out of train pushing adi to the left and right.Train waits at the station for 15 seconds, doors slide in and train pulls out of the station.Adi still standing at the same place shows sense of discomfort on his face and looks for another train to pull in.After few minutes, adi sees another train pulling in,Seeing the train adi gets and moves more closer to the track as if he is about to jump. adi frees himself and gets ready for the train.As the train pulls in the station adi tries to jump on the track to commit suicide pushes his right leg to make a jump  but a  sweet little voice shouts at him,
Hey you ??
Adi turns towards her with sense of discomfort on his face but as soon as he watches. Huge block of wind blows against them trying to move them but both of them stay put.Adi watches her as she is setting up her hair.Doors slide, people come out of the train, pushing both of them, walking in between them but adi doesn't let his eyes go away from her,all the pains and complications in his life seem to go away for a second by just looking at the beautiful face as she says, Dude, you  slipped your wallet

Oh, yeah thank you.

For the next few days adi comes to the  same station just  to talk to her every day .After few months,They both fall in love and  lived happily ever after.

Cheers !!

Peace !!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Need Some positivity !

Before I start about Positivity in my life.. I would start with blogging

I had this habit of writing blogs.. whenever I was frustrated, sad, happy, sometimes for no reason. My blog has been a part of my life for like years until I came to us. Here, I am hardly getting time for myself that does not mean I am busy or something but I am just not getting time to sit alone on my laptop and write some thing...

talking about blogs .. I have to acknowledge Rahul for persuading me to start a blog in the year 2008 and since then I have been blogging.At a point in time , I use to write almost everything and anything in my blog.If you read my blog or I would rather say If you dare to read my blog you would have a clear idea about my life or at least a part of my life.


Right now, Too many things are happening and what ever I do ends up failing. I am trying to think positive but even that doesn't help..

The negative things happening in my life

--> I messed up my cousin's mac book.. I did not mess it up myself but that doesn't matter,I have to fix it anyway.

--> I had to pay 300 $ against my tuition just because of my lazzy bum...

--> I had to go to a Interview and also rented a car for that and ended up getting up late in the morning to bum up my interview and the car fare.

--> Next day,I went to the interview but the interviewer did not show up...

--> I messed up my drive test again because of my lazy ass..

--->Because of all of this , I ended up working for just 30 hours instead of 40...

I know all of this doesn't seem that bad. but just imagine all of it happening in just three days . I was like WTF.....

I need some positive thinking in my life now... As they say, what ever goes around has to come around...

Waiting for good days to come back soon..