Thursday, November 25, 2010

Racism and I hate it

Prologue  :  I feel disgusted !

Before I came to the United States I heard stories of white people showing racism against Indians. After coming to the united states I feel all those stories are bull shit. I mean Indians show racism between Indains confused ???  So was I. We show racism between Ourselves.The first racist thing starts with the North and South Indians, I can understand that because south Indians don speak Hindi and north Indians don speak Telugu, Tamil,Malayalam or any other south Indian Language. When there is a language barrier it could be difficult. Although It can be argued.

The worst racism is between our people ( I am talking about AP or Telangana... see  racism again  ) Like People from andhra pradesh all of them speak telugu right ??  all of them eat almost the same food right  ??  I don understand why still they feel other caste people are different than us. Like I was talking to this girl and she was like I  would only marry or love  a reddy and no one else ??  I was like why ??  she goes like My Father would not agree.  Goodness me , We are like in 2010 almost 2011. If ur born on this earth, Its your right to get married by your choice. I understand your father  took care of you all these 20 years but he had to do it. out every 100 fathers 99 of them will do it right ! Do you think  your father would not love you any more if you get married to a person from different caste without his permission ??  no right??

The second thing , In this modern India, Take any application form , you still need to write down  your religion  on the application and if you don't  write it  they don't take it. How does my religion  matter to him  ?? I mean Why should he need to  know about my religion or caste ,I mean It shouldn't be mandatory  right?? democracy dude  for god sake !

I  see this racist thing in people from the rural areas  I do not want to be mean but yes, it is the fact. I know people who feel closer to a person even if he is a stranger  just because his last name is reddy, chowdary or he is bhramin or some ramdom Joe . Sick of those people.I hate the fact , I have to be them just because I have no other option. Some times I feel that I have to show racism against people who show racism. Hate Fucking society !

Epilogue :  Feel even more disgusted every single day ! 

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

The Train

I have read, heard about this like many times till now. If you ever want to become a director you should be a good story teller. This is my first approach in writing stories rather telling a story (written).

Precautions  :
This could be a story you probably heard.Since, I make stories out of stories. You might seen the same stories as I did so might look completely familiar.

Story :

My story also starts at a Station as most of Indian movies.

Its  6 O clock  in  the morning, Adi walks into the station with his jacket and scarf around his neck.Its dark and cold outside with the sky about to turn blue.Adi looks for train at the track. After few minutes,he sees a light from the far right coming towards him. He goes closer to the track. The Hog head honks at adi watching him being closer to the track as he pulls the train into the station, A huge block of wind pushes adi  but adi tries to stay put blocking the wind.Trains comes to a halt, doors slide and people come out of train pushing adi to the left and right.Train waits at the station for 15 seconds, doors slide in and train pulls out of the station.Adi still standing at the same place shows sense of discomfort on his face and looks for another train to pull in.After few minutes, adi sees another train pulling in,Seeing the train adi gets and moves more closer to the track as if he is about to jump. adi frees himself and gets ready for the train.As the train pulls in the station adi tries to jump on the track to commit suicide pushes his right leg to make a jump  but a  sweet little voice shouts at him,
Hey you ??
Adi turns towards her with sense of discomfort on his face but as soon as he watches. Huge block of wind blows against them trying to move them but both of them stay put.Adi watches her as she is setting up her hair.Doors slide, people come out of the train, pushing both of them, walking in between them but adi doesn't let his eyes go away from her,all the pains and complications in his life seem to go away for a second by just looking at the beautiful face as she says, Dude, you  slipped your wallet

Oh, yeah thank you.

For the next few days adi comes to the  same station just  to talk to her every day .After few months,They both fall in love and  lived happily ever after.

Cheers !!

Peace !!

Monday, October 25, 2010

Need Some positivity !

Before I start about Positivity in my life.. I would start with blogging

I had this habit of writing blogs.. whenever I was frustrated, sad, happy, sometimes for no reason. My blog has been a part of my life for like years until I came to us. Here, I am hardly getting time for myself that does not mean I am busy or something but I am just not getting time to sit alone on my laptop and write some thing...

talking about blogs .. I have to acknowledge Rahul for persuading me to start a blog in the year 2008 and since then I have been blogging.At a point in time , I use to write almost everything and anything in my blog.If you read my blog or I would rather say If you dare to read my blog you would have a clear idea about my life or at least a part of my life.


Right now, Too many things are happening and what ever I do ends up failing. I am trying to think positive but even that doesn't help..

The negative things happening in my life

--> I messed up my cousin's mac book.. I did not mess it up myself but that doesn't matter,I have to fix it anyway.

--> I had to pay 300 $ against my tuition just because of my lazzy bum...

--> I had to go to a Interview and also rented a car for that and ended up getting up late in the morning to bum up my interview and the car fare.

--> Next day,I went to the interview but the interviewer did not show up...

--> I messed up my drive test again because of my lazy ass..

--->Because of all of this , I ended up working for just 30 hours instead of 40...

I know all of this doesn't seem that bad. but just imagine all of it happening in just three days . I was like WTF.....

I need some positive thinking in my life now... As they say, what ever goes around has to come around...

Waiting for good days to come back soon..



Monday, May 31, 2010

Its my Birthday!!!

Its my birthday again, but This was THE MOST memorable one in my life. Last year, on may 28  My final semester results came out.My friends took me to GE,I had a great time with all my friends.It was awesome.I was so confused at that time. Now, after one year I feel that I am doing good.I mean I am a step ahead not a step down. I came to us in august,Since then I going good. I got admitted into a better university, I am living on my own,I am working, earning money.  I got good grades.At least I am happy with that forget about my parents.I am grooming myself, I never had so much interest in studies.I am not getting thin though ! .


May 28th 2010, This birthday stays  with me forever. I got the best surprise till date. My first cousins and his family came to our house from LA.I went out to SFO with them, I roamed all day until 7 O clock. When I came home, as I opened the door, All my friends and family  were like SURPRISE…. My brother made that happen. I have the best brother in the whole world.He messaged them on Facebook, took their numbers arranged everything without even letting me know anything. I never expected even in my dreams that It would happen to me, Like the one we see in movies.My parents are in USA, my brother and his family is in USA, I had my first cousin and his family in USA, MY friends, I mean My child hood friends,my engineering class mates, my present friends from my university.ALL of them were there for my birthday. What else can you ask for … I really love my brother… I just can’t express it in words…. I was on cloud 9.This is so damn Ideal…

There are more things which are happening in my life.. Which I can not  make it public.


Life is giving me so much… that am getting afraid of loosing it.



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Saturday, May 08, 2010

The first time I met you.

Note This post is not because I am missing her or something but because I just saw a group on face book called " I still remember the first time I saw you" and immediately wanted to write a post.

Yes,I still remember the first time I saw you.This happened long time ago..It was on the first week of february,don remember the year,date,day or time... all I know is It was in the evening at a bakery.I use to be a shy guy,I never use to talk to girls and proposing a girl was like light years away from my thought.But,that day something happened,Perhaps It had to happen in my life( destiny),perhaps It was love at first sight ,perhaps it was nothing...I dunno... but I was completely blank... The only thing I knew was that She was looking Damn beautiful and when I say beautiful I mean it ( no exaggeration at all).My friend introduced her,I was like Hi... uhh....uhhh... how are you? and she was like Ya am about you??, I smiled and said I dunno why but "I love you", and I am not joking... she had pragmatic smile like the ones we give when we are uncomfortable..and rest is history....

I wish she remembers it too...and hopefully she would read this post, probability of which happening is like...0.002%. she probably doesn't even know that I have a blog....But wish she would read it at some point in her life.

I never got a chance to thank my friend for the favour. Akhil ...Thanks a lot dude...for eveything,,


Friday, April 23, 2010

Stress and more stress

I am getting really tired these days.I am not getting time for myself. All I am doing is Assignments, Going to Job, studying all night for Mid-terms and then Assignments are back again. I have 'Zero' Social life since I moved to hayward. I am hating it. I have never liked to be organized all my life. But, After coming to us I am forcing my self to have a organized life. I hate planning, I can't just follow a routine every single day and be happy. I believe in uncertainty,Life has to be uncertain, what is the point in living if it is certain. Of course that is a different issue will have a whole post next time. My whole point is that I am getting stressed and I need some time to relax. The course is hectic, My un-organized life is making it no less than HELL.

Life is making me so busy that I am not getting to miss.....

Thursday, April 08, 2010

First things First

The first bike.

The first drag.

The first Beer.

The first laptop/PC.

The first time you proposed a girl/boy.

The first girl/boy friend.

The first love.

The first date.

The first kiss.

The first relationship.

The first job.

The first penny you earned.

The first flight. ( Doesn't apply to millionaires Though ! :D)

The first time you ... forget it... I am really getting bad thoughts now.

The first blog post :P.

These are such things that you never forget!!!!



Thursday, March 25, 2010



Hello, To all the insomniac’s in the blogger verse.I was a big time Insomniac back in India.But, Ever since I came to California, I was pretty much following 9am-12pm schedule, which  in my case is called “early to rise and early to bed”. Yes, 9 o clock is pretty early.But, The last couple of weeks I have been  following  5 am and 2 pm schedule,where I get up at  2 o clock and sleep at 5  in the morning. I am pretty much following IST living in PST smile_regular

Earlier, I use to like being awake late in the night but not anymore.All I think of in the night  is assignments and nothing else.My life since I have changed my university was all about assignments, midterms and assignments and more assignments and more assignments. For a sec, It feels like “ Yaar kuch tho padrahe huin” I never ever  tried to study in my engineering, All my engineering was all about one day batting before the finals and The other second feels like “ WTF assignments????” “kya padraha huin???”

Friday, March 05, 2010

Being an Indian

P.S : This post will be patriotic !

I just saw this video. "yeh desh hai meera" from swadesh by Ashitosh music : A R reheman.

Well ,Am listening to the same song now as I am writing this post. I have never felt this way before.I have not felt so patriotic before in my life. I think Indians who live out of India feel more patriotic than who live in Inida. For a second I felt like Damn these studies,money , country and wanted to go back to India. Its exactly as it is shown in the movie.There is a small pain deep in our hearts. I got completely connected to the song.Everyone who lives out here feels the same way and wants to go back to India. But,we feel happy (or whatever it is in-explicable )in being called Indian. Yes, this is true. The first day when I was in the university,one of the students asked me " hey are you from India ???" I was like with a sense of pride on face,Yes, I am from INDIA. Its feels real good when some one identifies you as an INDIAN.I did not realize all this when I was in India but now am feeling and living it.

"Being Indian"


Saturday, February 20, 2010

19 Qualities of ur dream girl...

bold what applies to your dream girl.

1. brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair
2. tall | short | same height as you
3. ears | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other
4. tattoos | no tattoos
5. skater | punk | player | indie | cowboy | musician | prep | jock | other
6. shy | outgoing | in between
7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet
8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes
9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other
10. converse | vans | nikes | skate shoes | other
11. listens to: metal | rap | indie | classic rock | country | all | other
12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary
13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary
14. sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough
15. hobbies: computer | music | skating | sports | drawing | fishing | other
16. loves to hold | loves to be held
17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby
18. pale | average | tan | dark
19. wavy hair | curly hair | straight hair | long hair | short hair | longish hair


Sunday, January 31, 2010


Yesterday, One of my friends asked me when am I going to india .I never thought of it, I mean I know I have to go back one day or the other but never had thought of going back since I was out of my so called "Missing-Hyderabad" thing. All these days I had a reason to go back to india. I had to see my parents but my parents are with me now in california. More over it takes around 1k for a round trip and another 1K for expenses in india, A total of 2000$ to go to india.I have exactly 40$ in my account before I bought my new phone for 30$ and I can't even think of going back to india its like having one rupee and thinking of having lunch in marriot.So, I am sure i'll not earn 2000 bucks for the next one year even if I do jobs continuously.
More over am loving california these days... Earlier I use to hate it for the same reason....Perhaps It might be a compulsion.

Jai hind


Thursday, January 28, 2010

Technology brings you closer.!!!

Technology brings you closer.Yes it does thanks to conferencing capabilities of the phone I was able to talk to 12 of my friends across various locations at the same time.

Teja-New Jersey.
And rahul from Pennsylvania.

Felt like i'm back in college for few moments.


Saturday, January 23, 2010

First love ?????

First love...

First love is always special to every one. I do not know about every one but Its really special for me. We all know we can not get back to our first love but still when we talk to them after a long time we develop a strange bonding with her/he while we talk.Perhaps, its natural to every one. I am talking to her for quite some time now after coming to california, I know nothing is going re-happen again but still I can bond with her very easily, I do not know why??? Perhaps because I am not commited now .... perhaps even if am commited I would have felt the same way.bloggerverse, I just want to know whether this phenomenon is common or not...please reply!!!!!!


Friday, January 01, 2010

Year 2010


On the eve of 2010,Well the year(2009) was good for me. I am doing ok now and I just wish 2010 will be as prosperous as 2009. I had a small wish list for 2009 and i was successful with half of my wishes. So, This time ill be wishing for more wishes and even if am half successful i would be ending up with more number of successful wishes.

Well guys am done and through with my first semester in us of a , of course results are not out yet but am positive about them,.I hope ill end 2009 with the same positivity.Being +ive about everything was one of the things i learned from my friend in 2008 and I was able to apply it in 2009 and i guess ill continue it in 2010 and possibly all my life.

When I look back year 2009 was event full and would never forget it.I only bad thing about 2009 was , I was single all year and i hope that would change in 2010. There are not many resolutions these except a few like getting committed and finding a nice job if possible getting an internship while am doing my studies and hope ill successfully complete my masters by december 2010.

The following questions was a straight lift from my friends blog sakshi's blog. I changed the answers ofcourse :D

Sakshi don't mind huhh...

1. What did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before?
2009 - took 3 flights in one day and talking english every day and spent a lot and i mean ALOT of money

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
yaa a lot and yes defly will make many more this yearr

3. How will you be spending New Year's Eve?
dunno mostly with my friends and am sure it'll be fun

4. Did anyone close to you die?
2009 - yaa and hope his soul will rest in peace rohit miss yaa buddy!

5. What countries did you visit?
Singapore, korea usa ..

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
girl frnd,grades, exercise

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
august 15 the day i took my flight and june 25 the day i got my visa
Probably Jan 18, 2009 and August 11, 2009 - A step ahead in journey called life!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Graduation of course ,visa,

9. What was your biggest failure?
Got into the wrong univ... academically

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
ya.. was hit with flu the i landed in usa

11. What was the best thing you bought?
nothing of my money

12. Where did most of your money go?
eating!! and ya.on . one more thing can't disclose

13. What song will always remind you of 2009?
happy days....

14. What do you wish you'd done more of?
met all my friends before i left india

15. What do you wish you'd done less of?
eating. and shopping.

16. What was your favourite TV program?

17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
don remember ... perhaps my X gf but its viceversa i don hate her now which i use to last year

18. What was the best book you read?
paul coelho- i fogot the nameof the book

19. What was your greatest musical discovery?
listening to pop.. i know now one like it

20. What was your favorite film of this year?
3 idiots! ya...

21. What did you do on your birthday?
got results on my day... had fun...

22. What kept you sane?

23. Who did you miss?
akhil, prathik,ujwal,prashanth, hithen and all my GE

24. Who was the best new person you met?
am always with the best people :D

25. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
never believe any one and don't talk to a girl expecting something

wish all you guys a very happy and prosperous new year !

P.S : hope ill atleast regularly blog this year keeping my fingers crossed.!!!